It’s been a while and there are no eloquent words spewing forth yet. The words seem to be tangled in the emotions and running around in a babbling configuration.
This holiday season is the first time in four that I have found myself completely alone. My kids occupy different continents and opposite sides of the United States. My best friend is now the angel in my heart and heaven. Although you may think the time is long, it seems like yesterday and forever to me since we were a family at home.
My life has moved forward in various ways, but learning to love being with only me…whew!, it’s much harder than I remember as a young adult.
A new home and a new job in an unfamiliar place where I know no one. The guts are present, but the glory is missing.
It’s a journey…
putting one foot in front of the other – I have gotten this. Words strung together to make sentences – well I will keep trying.
Good luck and peace in your journey!
IF what your doing feels right, keep doing it;
Listen to your soul as it speaks to you,
Let its voice be louder than all the others…
This is your journey not theirs!
Reach for the stars…
If you reach the top of the old oak tree,
If you reach the top of the stairs,
If you find your name in the stars,
Life is great.
We all reach greatness at different levels!
I have walked amongst the shadows alone,
I have had my share of pain and sorrow, loneliness and turmoil;
But I do not understand the darkest places you have been.
You always had a smile on your face,
You constantly offered words of wisdom and support,
Laughter and grace filled our conversations,
The sun seemed to be brightly shining in a world of utter darkness.
I didn’t see the hands of darkness grasping at your soul,
In your shoes I never walked…
We all have our crosses to bear –
I knew you had some heartache and agony,
But never did I understand your burdens were too heavy to bear.
Rest peaceful and know my heart…
I am sorry dear friend for the wisdom I lacked and your unending distress,
But know –
Your friendship will be sorely missed;
Too soon you’re gone and left a void in your place.
Forever, memories I will cherish til we meet again!