Reach for the stars…
If you reach the top of the old oak tree,
If you reach the top of the stairs,
If you find your name in the stars,
Life is great.
We all reach greatness at different levels!
I have walked amongst the shadows alone,
I have had my share of pain and sorrow, loneliness and turmoil;
But I do not understand the darkest places you have been.
You always had a smile on your face,
You constantly offered words of wisdom and support,
Laughter and grace filled our conversations,
The sun seemed to be brightly shining in a world of utter darkness.
I didn’t see the hands of darkness grasping at your soul,
In your shoes I never walked…
We all have our crosses to bear –
I knew you had some heartache and agony,
But never did I understand your burdens were too heavy to bear.
Rest peaceful and know my heart…
I am sorry dear friend for the wisdom I lacked and your unending distress,
But know –
Your friendship will be sorely missed;
Too soon you’re gone and left a void in your place.
Forever, memories I will cherish til we meet again!
I have not posted lately. Actually it has been some time since I posted last. I can give excuses, but there is only one that covers it all. I have once again lost myself which locks my creativity away in my soul. As I have stated on my About Page, this is my individual journey. Some days are easy and some are hard. Some being much harder than others. My life is constantly changing lately while at the same time my mind sees a milestone approaching. The changes are all necessary to move forward from the place I was, but it is also a realization of things past and dreams lost. In any case, they have brought about an emotional upheaval and so many questions I need to answer.
My writing has not stopped as it would appear here. It just has become a private endeavor necessary to sort out the frustration within myself. Grief is something I never imagined to be so complex. As soon as I peel away at its layers and think I have it mastered…. I find myself back in the storm. The storms are not always the same nor are all their appearances able to be foretold. What they do have in common is the need for me to sit with the grief – Feel it and accept it as a part of me; resulting from loving someone unconditionally. Time may never take it completely away, but my prospective seems to change while my life and my person also change.
In these changing times I need to explore and discover all that is happening to my mind, heart, and soul. Maybe on the other side of this storm I will find my words to have a greater wisdom. Please be patient, I will return. Hopefully more peaceful, wiser, and stronger!
Thank you to all of you who follow along.