Phantom

I (my thoughts) wander the dark halls of my mind. Gathering emotions from all I have seen or done. Trying as I might to feel the next step, the action I should take. This home is not quite right. No one has come here in so long. The halls are empty and echo the intentions of what I want. The laughter has not returned. Playful fun and dreams are fleeting: Only appearing long enough to keep the embers burning, but never quite igniting into beautiful dancing flame. I meander through- gathering memories of times when I stood full of life, eager to try, and filled with love. A tear touches my heart , never reaching my eye, as I wonder about that woman able to do and see so much. I reach for her and she slips through me like a phantom residing somewhere just beyond this reality. She is there; Elusive and tempting. A smile plays on her lips and a longing dances in her eyes. She too wants to come home reunited with all that was good and all that is waiting to become.

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Go Into The Night By Your Guiding Light

In the dark recesses of the mind are the answers and confusions. The truths hidden in the darkest shadows where life struggles to shine, whereas the confusions have light cast upon them readily available to be brought forth as truth in disguise. Our truths have been buried by words and experiences throughout our lives. We tend to see the light on the easiest path to attain; by being agreeable and malleable to what others say, what others expect, and the consequences of how we handle situations because of these.

It is our job to be sure we see the real truths and not those disguises. To question what we know in the silent moments of the night; a time when it is just ourselves and the world is sleeping. Search… search for you, let the light of your soul show you the truths and quiet the ego.

Questioning the Purpose

“It’s not that God doesn’t give us more than we can bear, we face the unbearable everyday, but he gives us a way to face anything.” – Pastor Jimmy
Standing amidst my chaos I question why. Maybe I am finding myself alone by Divine choice. A time to allow me to know me. How can I move forward if I carry the baggage from the past and constantly worry about the future? Carrying such burdens keeps me from seeing what is present in each moment. I am constantly fighting to balance and gain sure-footed-ness, missing the opportunities and answers in front of me. It is time to sit quietly alone and review my thoughts, opinions, and beliefs; To rewrite what is ego and/or false in my present world. Thence, I can move forward in a new transformation of me…the me that will fulfill a Divine purpose for this time in my life.